Silent Tears

Pain is not it is all

More it is much more

Happy days often return

Tears again run

Nights are often long

Silence again prolong…

I started to write a poem but the aching in the heart is just too much. We have heard so many times that life is too complex. I always believed that it could be lived simply.

I have tried to be always happy. I have always kept simple rules for life. I have kept faith in the people. I have seen life as it has presented itself, never tried to go into the evil interpretations. I have done things as people have expected me to do, I have always told them whatever they wanted to know. I have always believed in the God. I have always thought that people can teach me so many new things. I have slept early and I wake early, for I fear darkness. Whenever I will wake in the middle of the night, I always pray to God to please sit by my side so that I can sleep without fear.

I always wave from the train doors at the kids who are waving from outside. I always put my hands outside the window when it rains and sprinkle rain drops on me. I avoid drinking tea because it burns my tongue.  Some times I can not cross a busy road for scores of minutes and I pray to God to please walk by my side so that I can cross without fear.

I think I have asked God for so many things. She wants to teach me that never keep any expectations. That is why she has given me so much pain, so much tears. I have cried so much to please forgive me, I will take away expectations also from my life. But God wants me to shed more silent tears because again I am expecting forgiveness.

I don’t know what to do.